Looking back and forth, speaking too much and saying nothing

Well well, and here comes the good old November again. Next week it will have been two weeks since i came to Italy. Hehe, first time in my life i really used future perfect outside a classroom. Let's hope i used it well. So, two months, time for some recap, for evaluation...last time i've been here for three months and it felt like a long time, i've done a lot of stuff, done some work...the fruits of which i am to harvest now.

But this time it feels like a really short time so far...or not so short, but with not much happening, not much work done. I suppose i've got too much unfinished work and quite a slow finishing tempo. And the classic contradicting thoughts like: 

well, i'm not doing enough, perhaps i might focus more on languages, prepare for exams, let's say the DELF, finally - come on, i hardly used French in the past five years and now i should work on your Italian! don't even know the basic grammar! So now Italian! Be a good boy, speak the language of the country that feeds you! - Well, thanks to the anti-mafia policy, or whatever it is going on, it don't feed me yet - oh, don't be a ridiculous nitpicker and focus on the language! - Bene, da oggi studio un po di piu... - di piu? devi comminciare! - vaffanculo!

And so on. Perhaps i should write a list. A wishlist. Like on X-mas. Dear Honza, i would like to improve my italian,get focused, finally finish the articles i'm writing... Well, at least for something there are deadlines. And thank god for those. But still, it could be good to really write down some stuff, and that's my intention today. So:

- and here i wrote nine of those. and then i erased them, since i didin't intend to publish those, but i think it was good to write them down.

Va bene, aspettiamo, speriamo, vediamo. And today i'll finally put the drumkit together! Basta